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17 year old contemplating suicide...
Salaam alaykum,
I am a 17 year old pakistani girl, living in England. I was born and raised in here. Since few years I've been very depressed, very very depressed. I almost cry every day, and think about suicide every single second. I think about how life would've been if I wasn't here. I think about how MY life would've been if I wasn't part of this Pakistani family.... I think about how the death would be... I think about the weirdest things...
1,5 year ago I started with cutting myself. I got tired of life, so instead of screaming inside everytime, I started to cut myself and let myself bleed. I wanted to feel the pain I created. I am tired of this life, and every night I pray for my own death. I talk to Allah, ask him why I am me, why my life is like hell, and what I did wrong to deserve it.. I tried to be a good muslim, read 5 times a day, respect elder, be a good daughter, be a good sister, but nothing seemed to help. I've never felt like this... no1 knows what I'm going through, and no1 in my family knows I am suicidal! I turned my head to Allah, when I felt I am alone, I went to masjid, prayed etc... but sometimes it seems as if, He is enjoying the fact that I am suffering.. I know that is wrong to think, but I can't help it..
I will end my email with this, because I don't want to take any1s precious time...
Reply if you can,
Allah hafiz xx Amina*
A young Muslim with heroin addiction desperate for support...
hi my name is youssef jawad* and i am a heroin addict and i need some help, i chase about 0.5 of a gram a day. if u can help me phone me on this number. A.S.A.P. cos am suffering every min of every hour of every day. salamo alaikum.
A young Muslim girl with no one to turn to... Salam,
Its getin 2 the point wer im bout 2 lose it. Problems durin my childhood av affectd me real bad. 2 get striaght 2 the point iv slit my wrist and do other practices of self harmin ones self. its got 2 the point once tht i cut my arm tht bad tht i went 2 hospital to a these sort of strips put on my arm. The doctor in charge advised me 2 c the hospital pyscharist who in my mind made things worse - the y put me on anti - depressants and sed things should luk up 4 weeks after takin the medication, only only start 2 feel better 6 months after treatment, neway throughout al this no1 knoew about this - my family, friends- no1. 3 wks in2 the medication i stopd takin it cuz i got really bad side effects - didnt even bother goin 2 c ne medical profession after tht i av recieved 2 letters 2 go and c a pyscharist bt i avent bin 2 them. They dont seem 2 understnd so infact they dont seem 2 care.
i av bin suicidal on several occasions - like i av taken an overdose, smoked all day etc. tht only cuz iv had enough. im sory 4 the lng email and 4 the lengthy spelin mistakes cuz im sitin here cryin not nowin wat ive writen dwn. i wil b w8tin 4 a reply plz dnt take 2 lng bt i understnd if u do, i jst wnt sum1 2 understand the pain inside of me. Thanku. Laila.*
*Names have been changed to respect the anonymity of clients. Permission has been sought to disclose the correspondence of the client.
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